Shhh.. a sacred secret (:

When is the last time i had love movie marathon ?? Can't really recall actually (:
I wanna finish watching them all before school starts again because you just have to get back to your track and wake up from some little nice dreams or imaginations (:
..though i believe there can be miracle in this (:..

"p/s:i love you" was truly awesome and beautiful, far beyond what i have expected.
You can see from my swallon eyes if you were here last night when i watched ;p

The story tells how the husband made a perfect arrangement secretly during his treatment on brain tumor and start giving the wife different surprises when he left her...

I wondered, if mum had done this too, haha...too dramatic...
and wow,this kinda husband is way too awesome ><

THUMBS UP BABE (: !!!

the second one was "the notebook" from the author Nicholas Spark.
I have supported three novel, first is "a walk to remember","dear john" and yeah...the notebook (:

It was pretty simple, kinda predictable, but beautiful and exciting to see how both get together through it all.
Writing letters aren't easy.. it's so wonderful to write...  yet fragile too (:
When they turn to old grannies, the husband read their own love story to his wife who slowly lost her memory ,and the story was written long ago from the wife,dedicated to the husband.
The last page says," read to me, and i will come back to you."

mmm(: sweeett (:

I am gonna go for one more tonight and that's all for this holiday break (:

oh and..tomorrow is Sunday...gonna bid farewell ><"
I hope to see you real soon and remember to say it back (:

p/s : leave it all to God

The Last Will

What is the feeling of reading someone's last will??
What is the feeling of writing "your last will"??

During this Chinese New Year break, finally we take action to settle everything that has been "abandoned " for quite some time. Although it's not all settled, but at least things are progressing.

Why it took me 3years to finally hold the will in my hand?

I remembered few years back,i struggled and frustrated to settle all this because i just don't understand why do i have to learn it when everybody else do not have to even bother...
But i thank God, i know it is a special opportunity to just experience it first and learn from there.

Although i am naive in handling this, but He sent people to guide me along this way.
Forgive me if i have shown an annoyed face when you asked me to settle this but i have grown since then.

Tears almost fell reading the will..
It's not a paper with fancy words,
not a letter of beautiful touching words.

It's just filling in who you have assigned people to take care of your property, just filling in the blanks with names..

just a sentence filling your only daughter's name and a familiar signature..
the end of it..

How far can you imagine someone has to write the last will so sudden and prepare the way...

"The Last Will"

three words that took me so long to do some thinking...
Mum, thank you. I will take up the responsibility.


25 day of april 2008-27day of jan 2012

It's Sunday morning (: are you ready to arise and celebrate with your fellow brothers and sisters in Christ today ?
What time did you sleep last night??
Did you struggled before sleeping ??
I did actually (:
Maybe it was because you're on holiday, you get your mind stuffed up with so many things and thoughts...

Not easy ..><

but anyway (: let's start off today praying first for your family,singing and dancing before Him (:

p/s: i could survive without my dear black alarm clock (: it was a great joy founding it this morning. even if someone volunteered to be your human alarm clock, well you'll be happy for hearing his/her voice when you wake up but maybe he/her just want you to say :"i tak sampai hati larr (: you take your rest larh ya (:"

The air-cond teared again, maybe it just misses me too much .
Well, how are you feeling this chinese new year ??
Do you feel empty?
Do you hate the chinese new year songs ?
Do you feel excited??(:

It started off quite good, it started off on this day, Beautiful saturday (:

In 2011 i can seldom breath and relax every saturday, in fact it was the most tiring day teaching from morning to night.
Today was a nice one having a break back in ipoh and the kind of holiday mood has begun in this festive season.
It was nice , short sweet and simple outing with a few of them.
Having lunch in David's Diner, appetizers in Haagen Dazs, a bit of walking in Jusco and soaking in the rain.
It was not as planned but it was good, because you never expexted too much of it.
All you have to do is just smile, smile and keep smiling .
The cooling feeling of coffee mint still remains, the pace of footsteps walking on the same route with the same person remains rhythmic and peaceful.

The only troublesome thing is there's always something you need to be reminded of,
something that you cant go near right now,
something that you could just get addicted right away like a cup of Cadbury hot chocolate.

And so here i am, scratching my head working on a fence.
Build a fence instead of a wall, at least i could reach out to you and see you as someone i know.
At least i know i can say, " I'll see you soon then(:"
And maybe you could say it back. 

God, it was a beautiful day indeed. It cannot be compared to the ice cream in the hot chocolate ,it was just a day that could have not happened anymore. I know everything has a price to pay and i must be willing to pay for it,so God i rely on you to guide me, only Your ways and plans will lead me to what is destined. I just wanna throw away what i think or expect or thought and continue surrendering it to You.
Thank You God (:

take a small step, take it easy and sweet (:

p/s: Please don't make me guess,can you (: ??i do not hope to miss out anything i wanna hear.

i am hereeeeeee....

I was looking at the ceiling yesterday night (: It was the third night here and i started to wonder, when i have slowly blend with the surrounding, i will start to miss you.
You , refers to a lot of things. It could be them, could be a washing machine ? could be you ?

I couldn't go on facebook right now but i just want to praise God for everything (:
For a wonderful roommate ,who will help you in anything willingly.
For awesome classmates, who you can see and learn so much in their view about art (:
For every arrangements, every companion.
anyone who wish to know how am i can check me out here temporarily (:
yes i do miss facebook too =p
i miss all of you (:

我这个女生步入深圳中心书城双脚发软，口吐白沫。
音乐中心和艺术中心半天也走不完，怪不得有些人情愿在里头睡个午觉。时间紧凑精神欠佳，不需要医生嘱咐也知道不能逛下去，大概会精神分裂。

文学部门还未碰到我们已经拍拍屁股离开，书城里我什么都没买到，因为我迷路了，失去了方向感，忘了自己需要什么。

下次回来时我先要搞清楚书城里的迷宫，安排时间，列下清单，还有配上一对千里眼去寻找那一片汪洋的书海。

与生活一样，我们需要清楚自己寻找的东西，寻找到创造万物的他，才能寻见。

香~~~港？？？

如果你打算跟着超过10个人的团体去香港的话我劝你还是免了。。。免了！

香港一个这么小的地盘，拥挤狭窄岂能容纳上万多人，白的黄的黑的还有不晓得什么颜色的一块儿浸泡在丝袜奶茶里什么香味都不见。
我们家庭成员27人往这个地方朝拜去简直是苦差，
深怕哪一个走散，哪一个迷路，哪一个被撞*，精神非常紧绷。
（*在中国或香港，青灯是飞快车，黄灯是更快，红灯是小心一点地驾驶，停呢？）

车子没地方停泊，餐厅难找座位，天空少了一大半，说来说去我倒是还未找到那里有哪一点好。。。

哀哉，下次拜访你时再细心探索哦。

半面过新年

月台3 号车厢内，我戴着口罩坐在座位上。身边那3位体积庞大的男生，一个20左右，一个30左右，一个50左右把我夹得动弹不得。身体90度挺直，腿和小腿90度伸展。
如果把汉堡包当作例子，我是那层最没有高度的溶化芝士片。

怪咖，我不舒服耶，深圳已经发生H5N1人亡事件你知道吗?!

我发觉旅行时会染上的病一直在重复，
从台北，上海到深圳，我会突然身体发热，头一点疼，身体乏弱，或是有点作呕的冲动，但往往会在休息后就痊愈。

可怜的，我可是在跨年半遮面，梦里倒数。。。。

你披上了谁的关心？
披上了谁的面具？
谁的爱慕？ 谁的思恋？

你披上了谁的期待？
披上了谁的习惯？
谁的自由？谁的不自由？

我的身上，
披上了谁的围巾，

体贴又温暖的信号（：

那一夜

马戏团座位上捏完一把冷汗，很感动，相较于爱情片，这是另一种感动。
两年前一样的人？一样的动物？
表哥说得没错：“这是他们的专长，没必要换了。”
我眼前欣赏的不是纯粹一种表演，而是职业。

两年后的他们不论在外形上，表演方式上都作了一些改变，对于患上短期失忆症的我来说，还算是焕然一新。

其实我们不能完全记得那些每晚浓妆后的演员和身穿全黑的工作人员，
每一个不能出错的步伐，每一个用外表欺骗我们这些是极为简单的动作。

他们的生活让我有暂时性的新鲜感，是我很想揭开的谜团，一层层五颜六色帐篷里的故事等待被我聆听。


生活有时逃不了重复一个动作，一个规律，你要努力去适应，改变再适应。

那一夜， 是美好的夜（：

有些人能够在看不见的空间里看得到某些情景。
我在看不到对方的空间里，看到脚踏车前后的座位，
看见一对一样的球鞋在走动，
看见公车上肩与肩的相贴，

自此，我开始幻想，与另一半一起旅行时

依旧看不见的甜蜜。

怀旧

巴士在一路上不停地紧急刹车，你匆匆忙忙赶着去哪里吗？
我呢？这次有没有太匆忙地出门？
2011年的年尾旅行让我有熟悉的感觉，因为如果说旅行是透了恋爱似地出发，那我也是回到初恋的地方怀旧。

两年了，广州变了多少？深圳和香港会是让我内心蠢蠢欲动向往的地方吗？

2009年我在广州穿的衣服现在依然穿在身上，颜色褪色了，价值不同了。
我相信这次的旅行价值在于家庭旅行时每个人如何扮演他或她应当的角色。
即使不是和你有直接关系的家庭成员（干爹的哥哥的妻子的父母），你又如何去照顾去沟通？

去广州的这一段路，也曾经有男女初恋的思念和兴奋的回忆搅动着，回忆以一种可怕的眼神望着时光，只存留一点浪漫的基因让我重新出发（：