poor little thumb (:

As chinese new year is around the corner, i would love to do something which i will not do during my days (:
such as


coloring my nails (: whee =P


well actually i don't like long fingernails..and i don't know why...
i have tried to make it grow long....but i can't help using my baby finger nail cutter to CUT them OFF (:
so what's the point coloring your nails??


nahhh....just for fun..


i don't like fancy colours (: just some glittering nail-like colour will satisfy my baby nails =)

I don't colour them quite often that's why when i do it, it takes much longer time and i have just created some mess on my little left-hand thumb...haha..

wish you all a happy blessed chinese new year .
Please remember to cherich your time with your family and pour out love, care and concern to each family (:
Don't forget to be so GRATEFUL to the one who gives you ang pau no matter how much was given and sow back to the kingdom of God as well (:

last but not least, put on your most beautiful smile and prepare your heart in rejoicing 2011 chinese new year (: !!!

你是强者么？

真正的强者，不是一个尽显锋头，才华横溢，鹤立鸡群的一个个体。
我，不会刻意抢锋头，却曾经在不经意间让人觉得我傲，让人觉得我是个近完美的女生。

可我真的没有，我也不是。


一位强者，它必须能够不停地扶持弱者，保护他们，在适当的时候隐藏优势，在适当的场合装些小糊涂，偶尔耍耍小聪明，而不是在每一刻都显露出自己足以胜过他人的强势。

曾看过一个电视节目，是看谁能生存最久，每次过关斩将后留下的胜者不会被淘汰，里面的小细节我不太记得了，只是知道最后的大赢家是一位在每一关都保护并辅助某一位弱者的人。奇怪吧？

在三国里，孔明就是隐藏了荆州的优势，原以为他只有三万兵马，可殊不知他却埋伏了另外的五万，才将周瑜打败了。周瑜就告诉了我们，虽有才华，但不能傲，更不能胸怀度量狭小，没有雅量。他死前的一句“即生瑜，何生亮”是否让你有所省思？　

鲁苏是一位在孙吴里拥有智慧和远见的人，却在一次刘备和孔明假装演的戏里装糊涂，因为那时是情况所逼，而且只有装糊涂才能挽救当时的状况。

说说宫心计吧，那位最后做皇帝的陈豪岂不是装了半生的糊涂，当然这只是个小小的举例。


做强者的更不是在被给予一份较低职的工作时就吵嚷，就如三国里的凤雏一样，谦虚，更懂得跟随“识货”的主公。

强者要当得有智慧，不是锋芒太露。
要当得谦虚，让人心服口服的那一种，
并且时刻都能荣耀神，因为他始终为我们的最高真神，永坐在宝殿上(:

A music note =P

after learning violin for quite some time, i noticed that my music teacher actually used music to reveal some of my attitudes and characters..
like what happened today, she repeatedly saying "STUBBORN STUBBORN STUBBORN!!",
=( (it's not that i don't wanna learn you see, it's just that gimme sometime PLEASEEE to get your skilss and technique...=P )
next, she said " i am gonna cal you another surname, like "CARELESS"
(it's not that i purposely do the theory wrongly, though yes it's my careless mistake... *great sigh..)
thirdly, she said " You just want to play, you are IMPATIENT "
(same thing again, gimme some time, i will be patient to discover it out ya )
fourth, she said " this is so UNTIDY, this note that you have writen is ugly"
(wait wait, for my clothes sometimes it did get a bit messy, hehe, but i have changed (: !!
back to the lesson, i have tried to write every note as tidy and nice as possible, but my teacher won again.
for the next lesson, i am gonna be more detail on my work... *sigh of relief)

In my opinion, i do believe that art reveals a person one way or another (:
but for every wrong attitude i will change because i want to learn from Jesus (:
starting from every little thing that i slowly discover, even from
A MUSIC NOTE (:

Hidden

The study room is connected to my kai ma's and kai ye's room .
Everytime when i am in the study room and they are inside, i could hear them chatting, laughing and teasing each other (:
i am impressed.
They're just like a sweet couple after marriage though sometimes they do have different opinions but they don't argue.
Why am i impressed?? maybe because daddy and mummy seldom do that when i was young.
That's why when i see kai ma and kai ye, something stirred in my heart .

I need to believe in Love.
Mummy's tears has shown me that choosing the right one, you have to be alert and wise.
She may have failed, but that was one of the biggest lesson she taught me.

Oh mum.. i really wish to share what happened when i was speechless to you and wondered you may have gone through it so that you may laugh when i hug you and let you tease me as much as you can.

when the time is right in the future,
would you teach me not to let go??

a dusty guitar and a broken string, mum.. i should have taken good care of it...
ooopsss...

my identity (:

My identity has made clear when i finally decided (:
Who am i to you ?? (:
We have had the answer. How interesting i am gonna have another family and i am looking forward to what God has instored for me.
The book of my life has a brand new chapter in knowing another concept of family and i felt awesome because i believe at the end of the day , i will experience something different which is not easily could be chosen by everyone (: PTL
Not an abnormal girl but with God, we live an extraordinary life isn't it (:

My own family given by God,
Family in Christ given by God,
Second family given by God,
Future-to-be family ???  =D

笔触

决定在部落格上涂鸦有几项原因 ：第一，受朋友影响，第二：感觉上没有那么公开性。不过使用后，才惊觉发现自己并没有那么需要大众化公开生活小点滴，也不赞同同侪这样做。毕竟，这是全世界的人都可以阅读的，也许以后别人可以将这些当着把柄来反击你也说不定。当然许多人是想用文字发泄情绪，这没错呀。但是实际上在面子书在部落格的文字有多么神秘这是我们都众所周知的。对我个人而言，我喜欢将纸和笔随身带，因为一有灵感我可不能在等到回家时才写。曾经希望拥有一本日记，但纸张东一边西一边，煞是麻烦。文字可以抒发我的情怀，一切流露在纸上可以用一个字形容，“爽”。最后我原想将好多东西搬出来分享，却觉得有点困难。因此我将部落格当成一种启发吧。。

每个人都有独到的见解，只欠方法是否用对，再考虑时间，地点，对象等。我想用部落格变成一个人阅读后的得到不同启发的地方=）所以若你现在读着，请不要赶着将它读完，你在心底里可以好好思考每一字每一句并想想你是否也这么想=）

上面说到文字，其实我依然热衷于将文字写在纸上，虽然慢，但那个过程带来的感受和启发可就截然不同了。我喜欢在夜里将房灯都熄了，亮着桌灯，手里握着笔感受着笔尖碰触纸张带来一种细腻的感觉。笔尖在纸上挥洒着。。一撇，一捺，一横，一竖，一点 （你真的可以试试，但不可以急的呀）

李宗盛的一篇报导有这么一段文字“若你认识李宗盛够久，你会知道他爱用铅笔写字。他说他喜欢写字的原始状态，喜欢炭和纸张接触的质朴感觉。。”这就是我所说的。。享受嘛 (:

你呢？

dance (:

自小爱上了舞蹈，除了在客厅和妈妈播着贝多芬，莫扎特，舒曼的交响曲随意摆动身子自创舞步以外，也被送去了学习韵律操。每次在舞蹈中心将双手沾满粉末爬monkey bar，踏上弹簧似的板用不同的姿势跳过一个有我们一半身高的固体，用双脚靠在墙上双手倒立50秒，在平衡杆上作翻跟斗等等，还真的忘记了自己跌跌撞撞过几回。慢慢长大了就学会一只马，拱桥，将脚拉到头的后方等等（其实人可以是软骨动物）。韵律操里有藤圈，绳子，ribbon and club，每次将这些apparatus 抛上去后一定要用身体部位接住，“百抛百中”就是要磨练的地方。他们可没有你想的那么轻盈，藤圈是最重的，可以让你皮肤黑青，给绳子鞭到也一样，ribbon是最容易打死结的，跳舞时最麻烦就是它，club对我而言是一场灾难。。 它虽然硬，打在头上可以烘出小笼包，它也很容易断（只要你跌了数次），那时就得看老师板着黑脸了。

多年来参加过无数次在医院，在百货公司的表演，直到初二那年最后一场韵律操比赛后，我选择放弃了韵律操。它需要付出很大的代价，如果不是要从事韵律操事业的，放弃是最佳的选择。当然我还有另一个原因，就是我更偏向于跳modern contemporary dance(you can check out in youtube)。在韵律操里每个动作就是分数， 当然一个动作越难越复杂就越高分。我可不想再为了分数这样拼下去，毕竟我所追求的舞蹈是内心流露，具有深度，感动生命的意义。

曾在星洲日报副刊读过这么一篇报导。。

郭少麒——云门舞者

“舞蹈让我认识了自己的身体。艺术表演，是一个帮我观照自己的身体的介面，它反射我的生活，让我从跳舞认识自己的身体。人常忘记了自己的身体，不知道肩膀在哪里，不察觉自己在呼吸，但透过跳舞的一些动作，就可察觉到自己的肢体感受，感受到体温。透过舞蹈的动作，就能让自己发掘身体有无限的可能，并且带来细腻的感受”

                读了这篇文章，这位舞者终于诠释了我内心的感受，我就是喜欢跳完舞气喘呼呼的样子，身体每个关节舒散的感受，最重要是手的部位，如何摆动如何展示柔中带钢的动作。例如芭蕾舞，孔雀舞，千手观音等=）就如他说的“肢体的姿势是一种态度，一种语言”。它的文字顿时让我想翩翩起舞，如今心有余而力不足了丫。（柔软度有限了）

                是否让你对舞蹈有些启发呢？（当年跳的爱你对我而言不算舞蹈，它只是许许多多的小动作）

这就是我对舞蹈的热诚，跌的再痛也好，我也在那里爬起来了。若有机会再次与众多舞者在舞台上跳舞的话，我一定会再次参与的(: