the ups-and-downs

Thursday, November 4, 2010

born again =)

i'm a little bit excited because my birthday is coming soon =)
it's time to clear off some old messages so i have enough memory to let people spam my phone with wishes =)
this year's birthday i am gonna make myself someone who is new born to earth and don't own anything.
Why??
Because i wanna feel once again of being grateful about everything i have and everything that i don't deserve =)
if i held on to too many wishes, i am sure at the end of the day, there will be some little disappointments and i don't think i want it =)
things may come when you least expect them too.
so..dady mamy i love you =)
i will be officially seventeen SOON =) !!

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

merely a performance

i saw you posting that..for the first second i was extremely excited because what you just said i said before..
but after a second i thought, why was i reacting like that..
i knew somehow i was happy to know that..we still share something together =P
there's always something..very true huh.
Celine dion >> a new day, that's the way it is, TO LOVE YOU MORE

all the while

all the while i have been saying "nice" words to give myself a little comfort. A lot of times i remind myself not to do things to serve men but to serve God, and i always say "it's okay, i have tried". But my heart always yearn for results, yearn for some fruits that i can see and feel . I sang " my heart and faith will not be shaken"..

it comes to thursday once again.
it's always about thursday.
now i will tell myself, i am leaving soon. to start well and finish well is my goal and that's all.
what i can do. i have done.
I'll leave out the rest to God =)

i will go back to the beginning once again to build myself =)
 i love you all and hope you love me too.

Friday, October 29, 2010