the ups-and-downs

Thursday, November 3, 2011

无情系列

昨夜纳闷地坐在桌子前,和纸张来了一场无趣的互动,
用线条毫无意识地涂鸦一番。。。

无情系列(一)
热血,还是淌着血,心中充满邪恶地砸了一半的琴,
撕裂的琴谱,
漂流到何处去。


无情系列(二)
看不见的血,
谁为谁留,
谁对谁无情?

无情系列(三)
最后,时间说,
流血的是我,
无情的也是我。

Monday, October 31, 2011

有机有肌

今天我回到健身体操。
终于。

放任了肌肉许久,
发展地不太对劲,
吓唬自己下是好的。

因此把地毯拿出来,
沙袋拿出来,
力气通通跟我拿出来。

依照以往韵律操训练方式,
应该先跑步才恰当,
然后tiptoe脚跟走路一圈,
还有一大堆琐碎的练习,
空地有限为理由,
不。。应该是原因。。
或藉口。。算了。。
我直接跳到做sit up.....
提脚,前后旁边,
然后push up,
还有半天吊的拱桥,(暂时怕扭伤了阿嬷的腰)
等等等等。。。
没有流很多汗,
可是心跳加速,
特别有成就感。。。


好吧,
加油!!!
继续健身!!(:
呼气
叹气
憋气
吸气


不泄气


一套戏的名字叫窒息
电影的海报封面就是主角在水底里憋气的照片

我喜欢
因为沉过水尝试过scuba diving
喜欢那种突然听不见任何声音的感觉
听到的只是自己有节奏性,很重的呼吸声。

离开了水面,
在生活喘不过气时,
偶尔会在shower 下也这样憋着气,
让水从头顶流下,
持续地听自己的声音,
憋够了才从水中把头给拔出来,



继续呼吸。。

Thursday, October 27, 2011

有时候为什么会问一些自己已经知道答案的问题,是因为希望有另一个更好的答案?
有时候为什么会让自己走向一个更窄的路,无法自拔的时候才想办法钻个洞溜出去?
有时候为什么会渴望不用说一些话而它们依然会被听见,可能性不高不过绝不是不可能。。


很多时候不是没有办法,而是我们不愿意接受和改变。
如果每个人可以坚持无论在什么事情上抱着的那颗最初的心,那份初衷,
很多事情会变得更美好。
至少在贪心地追求一些最后没有自己想要的结果的东西后,
裂痕可以被复合。

就算永远也不能完全地合起来,
但是缝隙中坚持栽培出一朵美丽的花,
大家都可以更潇洒地微笑。

这样好吗?
允许这条路发生吗?


主,你会引领的。
只是,如果有什么是可以尽早避免,以免带来一点点的不和平,
告诉我。

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

oh daddy !!!
no no ..i just need some cash for savings and that's ENOUGH !!ENOUGH !!
please don't get me soft toys and
ohhhhh....
you're so cute but
please don't.......


i am not into TOYS.....

their heartbeat does not beat with mine =( =( =(

far better

Daddy , you called me and asked what i want for my present this year (:
Daddy there's too many things i want in this world,clothes shoes bags travel books CDs.........
all the earthly desires which cannot and will not be fully satisfied.
I hesitated and i replied you ,"i'll call back and tell you after i know what i want (: "

I would rather ask for a wish from you although i know this is not the way.
Give me a candle and i'll pray that daddy , you go back to God.
I knew i hadn't been doing much on sharing but i would really love if you just give me a word for birthday and that is " i am coming back to the heart of worship."

It is by praying that will move the spirit and His perfect timing,
and daddy, the family earnestly desire all the members to be saved and to be restored back to God.

but how am i going to tell you this because it has to come from the true conviction of the heart (:

and i think i will first tell you ,"maybe just some cash to buy clothes??hehe=D"
and tell you that :"God bless me a lot for this 18th birthday, thank you God for blessing me a daddy like you and we'll always be proud of you (:"

and lastly,we have to
be persistent in praying for you (:

seeing you walking with God again would be far better than having just earthly things that i want isn't it (:

Monday, October 24, 2011

如果无路可走
那我们依然能坐下
喝杯茶
不伪装地说笑一番
然后拍拍屁股转身离开

然后再相会


这样很好,不是吗??