shame??

if it's about friends,
i don't think it should have the feeling of "shame"


shame you're not as high-achieving??
shame you're different ??


no way,
indeed we're different and special..


it breaks my heart if it's about shame that makes up a wall..

i pray for a door to open in this friendship because this friendship is worthy
and i never wanna lose it...


you may not know it but i pray you hear it and
you'll not miss it...

my heart beats in year 2008

that day the sun shone brightly,
my aunt's family,
and my grandparents,
came from hometown to visit mummy and i (:


to my surprise,they brought beautiful bouquet of flowers,
and they helped me to put them in the vase nicely,

for the simple act i appreciated
so much so much...
though it's easy,
yet its something that i learned,
act of love in this family.

my uncle said :"
everyone has to die.
teenagers seldom think about it because there are too many dreams to achieve.."
i put them in heart very often..
also when Moses asked the Lord to lead us to number our days,

i keep that in mind too.

my heart was touched even when we bow down and pray together beside the grave,
with much sincerity, we sent our love and wishes to mummy from prayer,
and with love, we asked the Lord to continue to do HIs work in our family.

With peace, i knew that daddy God brought mummy to heaven..

what about you?? do you know where does your spirit is heading to ??

have you found
HOME ??







before we leave, we took photos beside her with the warmest smile




i love you dearly..
i am proud of you as much as you're proud of me...

p/s: you are there beside (:

红毛丹的回忆

他递给我的一盒红毛丹
我将它们放进了冰橱里冷藏
让它们柔嫩的肌肤上结小冰块


我手里拿着小刀
切下一片片的红毛丹肉
落下看不到的雪花
也冷冻了我的手指



一片片的红毛丹肉好似透明未熟的salmon鱼
我愉快地吃着吃着。。。



回忆起
这是妈妈教我吃红毛丹的方法

她一片片地切下
我就一片片地拿来吃。。


我知道
我不会忘记这小小的回忆
让红毛丹继续将我们曾拥有的甜美继续甜在我的心头 (:

hard but not impossible (:

one day i was talking to him in the car,
and he mentioned about the art associations other than ulcc mostly only have one director, or working partners..

you can seldom find life partner
two perfect match working together,building together (:


yet he felt it's harder to find working partners than a husband or a wife who works with you together...

i shook my head..

for me, it's harder to find a life partner who is willing to work with you
and invest into the same area
TOGETHER ,playing each role with great passion (:


p/s: it's tough, but not impossible (:

a risk

i could still remember someone advised me to choose the leader that you can count on to,
a leader you trust,
even,
a leader who you have the confidence that he or she will change and grow...


i always thought i could doubt no more with my faith but one thing i realize,
what is it about :faith without action is dead" ??

now i understand...

i have faith on this person,
yet i couldn't make time to build her, to put down my effort and time to encourage her even if she's building a wall against me..

i failed and she stumbled...


this is the risk that i took but
the responsible i could not with hold.
truly, i am sorry to this group of people..


at least,
i learnt (:

i will be more alert in choosing someone in time to come (:


p/s: to serve, and not to be served.

Listen

倾听
真得这么重要？

是的。。

别说倾听别人，先听听自己。。

我们都知道我们应时刻倾听自己的声音。。

但你真的做到了吗？

今天好不容易在展览会场忙里偷闲，

自己到外面散散心，听音乐，观察一些静静存在地叶子，花朵，云朵，才惊觉发现

原来我已忽视它们好一段时间了。。

找一个板凳坐下来，

让自己静静地反复思考最近到底在关注什么，

要做的做到了吗，

坚持下去了吗，

做对了吗？

错了？

如何去改善和学习？

调整心情了？

太多太多了。。

突然想起，现在的面壁思过已成了一个口头禅。。

那当然我可不是觉得我们还需要这样，

但是也偶然发现自己的小错误冒出来了。。

就在

静静独处的那一刻

陪陪自己

认真地看着自己那颗裸露出真实的心

用智慧去分辨

去理解

去改变

人生，

是一种听觉享受(:

不明白

有一个不明白的东西

夹得我动弹不得

不能这么继续下去

暂时歇着下，好吗？

神，我不要走投无路才寻见你

我应该一开始寻见你的心意。

如今我再次将之献上

如今我只能相信一切在你手中