to my beloved who always wanted me

To my beloved grandpa,
     It hurts my heart to see you grow pale and even skinnier than before. You were admitted into the hospital and i knew it, but i did not call though i was prompted to. This chinese new year you fell down and the only foolish question i could ask was " gong gong, is it painful?"
     When i was young, you would talk to me beside my bed and pull my baby fingers and baby toes telling me that they will grow so long and beautiful. I would always compare my skin colour with you and am so proud that i am fairer. When i wake up, you would carry me down the stairs from the bed and throw me up so high to wake me up completely so i could see my favourite food being served on the table. I wondered right now, did you bring me to brush my teeth? haha
     When i was young, the lorry always seemed so tall and so hard for me to climb up. Everytime you saw me climbing up, you'll put on a big smile on your face (: You bring me here and there to those construction places and just bring me around my lovely hometown.
     I left you to ipoh but you have always wanted me whenever there's a planning of a family short trip. To taiping, to park ... anywhere..you'll ask your daughter to come to ipoh just to pick me up even though it's so inconvenient. Why ?? (: Because you love me so much so much and you are afraid i am lonely.
     When you were showering, you'll ask this little girl to take a shower scrub to brush your back with dettol shower cream umtil it's all red (: Do you still felt the warmth on your back grandpa although you're given a massage chair ?? Every night when i am in ipoh, you'll call me to check out everything's fine .
     Grandpa, forgive me for i do not know how to talk to you like how i used to when i was young, lie down on your big tummy and play with your short rough beard ...
     Above all else, you are forever my beloved grandpa and i am your beloved granddaughter (:

p/s: God loves you (: